PTD

I'm not crazy. I was feeling crazy, but figured it out: I have post-transplant depression. Post-transplant depression feels exactly like postpartum depression, minus the third day engorgement. I'm so very grateful not to be lactating, but the fatigue is exactly the same; it doesn't matter how much I sleep, I'm still exhausted; noise is amplified; my head hurts; I'd love to just toss the man that kept me up all night out the window.

Once I recognize it for what it is, I can deal with it; stop/drop/roll until it goes away. It always goes away..............

at least I hope it will; after all, this is my first time with PTD...............

please, Lord, let it be the only time with PTD.

It was great fun to go to clinic. Gone are the, "Sucks to be you.", visits; everyone's thrilled to see Scott doing so well. They increased his pain meds; hopefully, we'll get a better grip on that party.

M is at girl's camp. She was so excited to go, she made Kathy drive her to the church early, expecting to be left alone to wait. I would imagine she's well entertained.

I've been talking to N on the phone. She doesn't want Scott's surgical staples as a souvenir; she wants a pet. I told her cats and dogs are out of the question with Scott's transplant (not entirely the truth, but......), so she's exploring the fish tank with bubbles option to go with her frog........ we'll see.

JA just sobs when I talk with him on the phone. My first instinct is to pull him down here with me, but there's no way I can handle anything more than the current bare minimum. Perhaps, a change of scenery would help...... we'll see about that, also.

C is C. She is playing at Malia's, tomorrow. She's pretty easy going; it doesn't take much to keep her happy.

All in all, I think the kids have done pretty well considering the chaos of the last year. I am saving up and looking for a group discount for their therapy. There's been plenty of fuel to warrant it.

I wonder if anyone specializes in post-transplant trauma, PTT.

I wonder if the grandparents will need to get in on those sessions.